I have never been smaller than a size 12 in my adult years. And I’ve never really had a problem with this either. My thighs have always rubbed together and I still felt attractive. I could never be a runway model but that’s never bothered me. The photo you see is of a slightly larger B. I was loved by friends and family but most importantly—I loved myself.
It wasn’t until I visited the doctor my senior year of college and he told me he was concerned about my high blood pressure, that I began to worry. A few more visits confirmed that I indeed had dangerously high blood pressure for someone my age. My systolic reading (top number) wavered between 140 and 145. This was not a good look for a 22 year old…or anyone for that matter.
And so to the World of Weight Loss I went. I went from a size 16 to a size 12 solely on monitoring what I ate and became BFFs with the gym. My blood pressure has consistently stayed normal and physically, I feel great. I am far from skinny but I am in shape and healthy!
….even though I’m not a size 6. And even though I’ll probably never wear a bikini. But I’m okay with that. I don’t look at numbers. I don’t own a scale and don’t don’t cringe at clothes that have double digits. I never really feel fat (unless I’ve over-indulged) and I can honestly say that I love my body; flaws, flub and all. According to the Body Mass Index calculator (stoopid calculator doesn’t even consider muscle mass), I am obese. But when I look in the mirror, I don’t see that. And I certainly don’t feel that way when I’m running my miles in the morning. I’m not even desirous of being a size 10 or 8…and let’s be honest, a 6 for me is a joke.
As we continue to press forward for healthier bodies and lifestyles, know that your beauty outshines what size you are and how much you weigh. It is a work in progress to get to a healthy weight–but in the meantime, don’t let these numbers make you feel bad. You are beautiful no matter what.
But be sure to open the window first.
I love, y’all! Hang in there! Feel free to drop me any suggestions you may have. See you at next week’s check-in!