I have fantastic news! I ate regular food this week. Eeeeeek! Y’all have no idea…NO idea how much this means to me. I feel like I’ve been hungover for 3 months and being able to eat something that I actually enjoy without it making me want to hurl is just…amazing. I feel like I should give a speech or something. I’m just so elated.
This week of pregnancy has actually been realllly good. I had a brief stint of random morning sickness that hit me at 7pm on Tuesday and wouldn’t go away but other than that, I’ve been in good spirits with very little complaints. And trust me – that’s the first. I haven’t been so super exhausted but still manage to sleep through the night. Headaches plague me every now and then but as a migraine sufferer, headaches are actually tolerable to me.
Here’s what Bean is up to this week…
My how your baby has grown! She’s about the size of your palm, weighs about five ounces, and is developing some body fat (join the club, baby!). Her heart is now regulated by her brain (no more random beats) to beat 140 to 150 times per minute — about twice as fast as yours! What else is up? She’s practicing the survival skills she’ll need at birth — like sucking and swallowing. (source)
And in other good news – I’ve got a legit baby bump. It’s so adorable and I’m glad to know that it’s not making me look like a whale. Not yet, at least. I’m a plus sized gal and so being pregnant always meant that I wouldn’t be just ALL belly. I didn’t want my pregnant belly to look like a big gut, ya know? I know the un-thin girls out there can relate.
Acne is still attacking my face and now I’ve got bacne. I’ve never had it before so to discover 5-7 pimples on my back is quite disturbing. I want nothing more than to go to the dermatologist for that and my eczema that is going out of control. But I’ll wait until after Bean is born. Hopefully by then, my skin will straighten out.
I’m starting to realize that maybe people were right about that whole “One day you’ll wake up and feel better.” thing is true. I’m not sure what day it was but I stopped being super nauseous, gagging at the thought of food and a belly started to appear. It was as if the clouds lifting and I started feeling like myself again. Thank you, Lord! I can probably go ahead and really start investing in some maternity clothes. I’ve got 2 pairs of pants but zero shirts. I’m not sure if I’m a fan of the super fitted look on pregnant bellies. Granted I don’t need to wear loose “Mommy” shirts but I’ve got to find some comfortable and cute pieces. I’ll probably be thrifting ‘em because I just can’t go breaking the bank on brand new maternity wear. Except for maternity/nursing bras because those are SO essential right now.
Can I be honest, chicas? I don’t really know what I should be doing. Like…with anything. There’s nothing that frightens me about being a mother because I know I can do that. But it’s the stuff leading up to it that has me in a whirl of confusion. When do I do a registry? What symptoms warrant fear? Is it okay that I forget to take the other half of my prenatals every day? Is it okay that I’m having a girl but don’t want her doused in pink everything? How much should I be eating? How much is too much? Is sitting for 8 hours a day bad for me? Will this varicose vein go away? Can I get my hair dyed? Is it okay that I don’t desire being a stay-at-home mom? How long should I breastfeed for? Am I getting enough protein in this vegetarian pregnancy?
And yeah – a lot of that stuff is unimportant in the scheme of things and I don’t go around wrecking my brain over them but I wish I wasn’t in such a wave of confusion all the time. I guess all first time moms go through the same thing.
Tis all, y’all! Thank you so much for the continued love and support. I know these baby posts aren’t up everyone’s alley (I realize some people just don’t care about this kind of stuff – and that’s fine) but Clumps has been my love for 5 years so I would feel “off” not sharing this with the Clumps family. Know what I mean?