I’ve been having these crazy thoughts lately…..about make-up, in general.
Sometimes I’m envious….envious of those who work at MAC, those who have bangin’ ass photos of make-up they’ve done, folx with killa FOTDs.
Sometimes I feel stupid spendin’ all this money on make-up. I could be donating money I spend to the school that I work at. I could be paying off my credit card. Or saving up for a ticket home for the holidays. Or for a new tattoo. Or for grad school. Or for the damn GRE to get into grad school!
Sometimes I feel excited! I enjoy looking at my pictures and seeing the designs that I’ve created. I get proud of myself.
Sometimes I compare myself to others….”Damn, I can’t do that.” “I’ll never be able to do this…..” I get rather defeatist.
Sometimes I want to pursue make-up artistry.
Sometimes I think I should just focus on grad school.
Sometimes I get mad for not being to afford the things I want.
Sometimes I get mad for wanting to spend money on things like this.
Sometimes I think I can do it.
Sometimes I think I lack the experience and references.
Sometimes I want make-up to be a hobby.
Other days I want it to be a fun career.
Sometimes I think I’ll never make it big if I did pursue it.
Other days I think I may be THAT bomb ass make-up artist.
…..crazy thoughts. But at least they are genuine. Can anyone relate?
I also did another MAC Halloween look. Just for fun.
I used….no face make-up.
Revlon Colorstay Black eyeliner
Golden Lemon pigment
Pink Mauve pigment
Fix +…..I love this stuff with pigments!
Jellybabe Lipgelee….tis all!
….only took me a good 15 minutes.