Confessions of a Stressed Out 28-year old

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This post will have absolutely nothing to do with beauty. I hope you don’t mind that. Sometimes I need to write about something other than a mascara, ya know? I used to write in diaries and journals daily. I miss those days. Even now if I wanted to write in a journal, I’d be consistent for a good week and then fall off the wagon.

Can I be honest? I mean, REALLY honest? I am crazy stressed out. I could blame the pressures of being a new mom but honestly, I think I was stressed before Elle Belle. I’m just one of those people who happens to always be on the edge about something: finances, job circumstances, weight, location, health. You name it and I stress about it. It’s just who I am. And stress isn’t always a bad thing. But lately, I’ve just been wiped out. Do you ever feel like you work too hard but at the same time you’re not working hard enough? It’s so tough to find a balance.

You ever want to get away? I mean, REALLY get away? Not worry about a thing and just jet to an island where the sun is plentiful and the only disturbance you hear are the waves crashing? I’ve been to Miami, Jamaica and the Bahamas…I know what paradise looks like. And man, how I’d love to visit again. But investing in a trip seems crazy when there are so many other expenses in my lane.

I’m not complaining. I’m grateful for every breath I take. I am thankful for my beautiful family, the opportunities that have come by way and the doors that I know will open for me in the future. I am confident and positive but hey I’m all about accepting ALL of my emotions and sheesh…I’m stressed.

I say all of that to say that posts may be slow and inconsistent. My only free time to really blog is after work and I’d rather spend time with Elle and prepping for the next day. And even after she goes asleep sometimes I want to sit in the dark and do nothing. Think about nothing. I just want to be.

Sometimes we DO so much. It’s as if we forgot how to BE. Be in the moment. Be still. Be quiet. And maybe it’s the Capricorn in me but I love the quiet. I need it sometimes.

Tomorrow I’ll put up Baby Elle’s 5 month update. And then after that, I’m just going to go with the flow. :cool:

 

XOXO,
B

10 Reasons Why 2012 rocked

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If you ever wanna know just every characteristic about me, read the definition of a Capricorn. I’m not even lyin’. Every bit of those horoscope descriptions describe me to a tee. It’s weird. They say that Capricorns have the tendency to be negative and yeah, I can definitely a be “glass is half full” type person every now and then but when it comes to analyzing an entire year, I could never label an entire year as BAD.

Seriously – how can people say things like “2012 sucked”? Wait. The ENTIRE year sucked? Every minute? Every day? Every month? What about that whole “You woke up every day.”-thing. Doesn’t that matter?  Yeah. I don’t get it. Life is precious and even if it isn’t perfect, I value it. And I appreciate it because I know in a split second it could be gone.

So here’s why 2012 rocked for me…

 I was physically active

Before I got pregnant, I was at the gym 4-5 times a week. I was running without stopping, lifting 30 lb weights and yoga-ifying my life. I’m not sure how much weight I lost but I just FELT good. 2013 will bring new challenges with my post-baby body but I can’t wait to get active again and train for a 5K and maybe even a 10K.

Esposo and I moved into our own place.

We didn’t do that whole shacking up thing before we got married (because I’m old-fashioned like that) so it was tough having to consolidate everything and learn how to live together. But hey, I think we’re doing okay now. What I really mean is: As long as the house is immaculately  clean at all times, Esposo gets to live. :grin:

I held 4 ambassador positions.

Being a blogger isn’t enough for me. I’ve invested 5 years in this business and want to be considered an authority in the beauty arena and the highest level of that (at least in my book) is being asked to directly represent a brand. It’s an honor and one that I don’t take lightly.

I got pregnant.

I always had these “What if I can’t get pregnant?” fears and my gynecologist’s “Get knocked up before 30 or else…” scare tactics did nothing to ease those fears. Baby Clumps’ existence is just a miracle and I am so blessed to be her mommy. Some women dream about being a mom. Others could care less. I’ve always sat comfortably in the middle but I think I am the type of woman that Baby Clumps can be proud of.

I landed on 2 beauty in-store displays in Walgreens and Target.

Seeing my name and picture online is cool. But seeing it IN a store is nothing short of amazing.

I was financially savvy.

I not only paid off 1 credit card but consolidated another and I’m on a road to become debt-free. I cut my spending tremendously. I may have spent under $200 on random things for myself. I’ll probably be paying Sallie Mae forever though. Ugh. Whatever.

My marriage flourished.

Okay, we’re not perfect. We argue but I promise you – we’ve never been mad at each other for more than an hour. We’re learning how to be better people and a better couple. It’s been a tough road but it has been so so sooooo fun.

I was never bored.

The last time I was bored, I was like…7 years old. 2012 had me crazy productive. I probably worked a bit TOO much but I have the type of personality where if I’m not swamped in work, I feel inadequate.

I spoke at The Makeup Show Orlando.

That was cool stuff. It wasn’t my first speaking engagement but it was pretty darn cool to speak about what I love most in the city that I live in.

I tried.

Which is all anyone can do in life, right? I put my best foot forward in several areas of my life and even if things didn’t turn out the way I wanted them to, I can go to bed tonight and know that…I tried.

2013 will be better though. Because I said so. :cool: Thanks for hangin’ out with me this year. Let’s reconvene in 2013, uh?


Oh…and what made your 2012 awesome? Please brag about your awesomeness.

 

Merry Christmas 2012!

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Season’s Greetings and a very Merry Christmas to my Clumps of Mascara family.

I was a bit down most of this holiday season (preggo hormones, I tell ya) but with Mama Clumps coming over and putting up that darling 2-foot Christmas tree, Esposo whipping up his world famous macaroni and cheese and recognizing that in a month’s time we will have started a new year, I would have turned a new age and I will be thisclose to bringing my first child in the world, well…do I really have anything to be down about? Nope. I am swimming in a pool of blessings.

And I hope you realize that too. We live in a world of wants but I think sheer happiness lives in YOUR world of haves.

Love y’all mucho.

Join me for Beauty in the Bag’s Weekly Twitter Chats!

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I’m a bit of a loser for just NOW letting y’all know about this. My bad! For the past 2 weeks I’ve been co-hosting the very awesome @BeautyInTheBag Twitter chat. It’s a been a whole heap of fun and a nice little break in those mundane work days of mine.

Even if you aren’t much of a Twitter user, you’ll likely get a lot out of these beauty chats. Each week we chose a topic and tweet out questions, answers, suggestions and advice about said topics. Aaaand, at the end of each chat, one lucky participant is selected to win a gift bag of goodies. Woot!

Follow @BeautyInTheBag and the hashtag #BeautyBag. Hope to see you on Tuesday at 1:30 EST! Oh, and if you’re like me and find Twitter parties/chats to be a tad bit overwhelming, I recommend using TweetChat. It’s not foolproof but it’s great at speeding up and slowing down the flow of the chat.

 

 

Happy Thanksgiving!

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I’m so grateful for so many things. And I usually don’t need a day to think about ‘em. I make it my business to give thanks every day for my life, health, strength, family members, friends, employment, hobbies and then random things like blue skies, green grass, freedom of speech, blogging, Hello Kitty, glitter and charities.

Yep.

Happy Thanksgiving to my U.S. family and those everywhere else in the world who celebrates giving thanks. Oh! And what relevance do those bubbles have? None. I just really like ‘em. :cool:

Guess who is on a Wet ‘n Wild beauty ambassador display in Walgreens?

I am!

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I couldn’t make it up if I wanted to. I’ve known about this for months but forgot about it until yesterday. That’s just how forgetful I am, y’all. If I’m sworn to secrecy about something and can’t talk about it for months, chances are I’ll forget. Bananas. Anyway….I’ve been a Wet ‘n Wild ambassador since last year and the brand had a nifty way of showcasing their ambassadors on a display. I am honored to be placed alongside other fabulous girls in the beauty space. How cool is this?

Emily of BeautyBroadcast.net.

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 Celly of MakeupByCelly and Becky of EverydayMakeupBlog.com.

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My beauty sister, Kelly of VampyVarnish.com and moi.

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My other beauty sister, Gianna of Nouveau Cheap.

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Moi again.

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Jacqueline of a ABrilliantBrunette.com.

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I have yet to see this display in person but one if you manage to go looking for it, it looks a lil’ somethin’ like this.

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If you manage to spy it, post a pic on the Clumps of Mascara Facebook page. This is bringing back memories from my Target display this past Spring so I am all kinds of giddy. I love when brands show bloggers love. Woo hooo!

It’s moving day!

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Yes again. If you’ve been reading Clumps since 2007, you’ve seen me go through 6 moves in 2 states and 3 cities. Bananas, right? While a lot of people are still in the same home they grew up in, I haven’t lived in the same house for more than 2 years since I graduated from high school.

Which of course means I could probably teach a class on “How To Move Your Life Without Loosing Your Mind”. Seriously. This move, however, is a special once because this it’s “our” first place together. When we got married Epsoso moved in on my former bachelorette pad and when that lease ended we couldn’t move quickly enough to secure a larger house. One that gave me a beauty room and office and Esposo a studio.

So yeah. My arms are beyond sore and how my legs are still functioning is beyond me. Wish me luck!

Oh! And I’ll need lots of advice on beauty room decor so stay tuned for those posts. Have a great weekend!

Shop at Target? Look for Clumps on the shelves!

Surprise!

This was the “surprise” that I tweeted about 8 months ago. I sent out a very suspicious tweet back in 2011 tellin’ folx to look out for “something”. It was crazy vague. But a week ago – they finally hit the stands.

“They” being Maybelline’s Best of Beauty Blog’s displays in Target stores nationwide. Each row features a quote from a beauty blogger. And of course I just had to throw my 2-cents in on the greatness that is Maybelline’s Great Lash LOL mascara. I mean, it only makes sense, right?

Without getting too emotional – this is such a big deal to me. I’ve been blogging on Clumps for what will be 5 years in June. Wow. And while I don’t aim to be all “celebrity-ish”, my goal is to leave footprints. I don’t want to be just another beauty blog. I want to be inspirational. I want to crush stereotypes. And this display does so much for me. It let’s the world know just how powerful us bloggers are. How our voices matter. This display is like another step in the right direction for bloggers everywhere. Just like the Bloggers’ Obsession collection from MAC Cosmetics was. It’s a good time to be a beauty blogger and I’m so glad that I invested my time in doing something I truly love.

I’ve never been prouder to be a grad school dropout.

Which sounds horrible, I know but for years I was forcing myself to do what I thought I SHOULD have been doing instead of what I truly wanted to do. But alas, everything happens for a reason and little gems like this remind me of that.

If you spot this display in your city, take a picture and send it to me or upload it to the Clumps Facebook page. And lots of love to my fellow beauty blogging sister Amber from Beauty Junkies Unite who also made it on the display. Woot!

Oh! And in other Target beauty news…did you know the Boots section of Target has a mirror and disposable tissues and cotton swaps?

Cauuute, right? I love Target. So so much.

Ciao lovelies! Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

 

P.S. – I totally forgot that it was April Fool’s Day here in the States so no, this is totally for real. Like fo real fo real. 8)