Baby Clumps: 19 Weeks + Being The Mom With A Life

Talk about a belly that grew overnight, uh? I’m actually okay with the fact that I didn’t really pop until close to my 5th month. As a woman who has always tried to lose weight and not gain, gaining too much too soon would have put me in the nut house. For awhile I thought something was wrong with me because I didn’t look pregnant. Like the old saying go, “Be careful what you wish for.” My overnight belly is reminiscent of my boobies. I went from undershirts to double DDs in like…a night. I’m not even kidding. I always tell the joke that one day I woke up and a boob plopped on the floor.

I’m so inappropriate, y’all. Poor Bean. She’s going to have to endure crazy stories like that for a lifetime.

What the babe is up to this week….

“Your favorite womb-hijacker is suddenly huge, at 10 inches in length! This week your lil’ fetus will start digesting the extremely appetizing diet of amniotic fluid and baby wee, as they are now capable of swallowing, digesting, and passing the fluid as far as their tiny “large” intestines.” (source)

How do I feel? GREAT! I really don’t have many complaints. My back hurts all the time but I try to get up and move throughout the workday. Nausea still greets me in the morning and early evenings (whether I snack or not) but I’ve learned to just deal with it. I remind myself of Filbert from Rocko’s Modern Life.

Aside from the nausea, I do okay day-to-day. I thought I’d be free from heartburn but I get that daily too. It’s manageable though. Annoying? Yes. Worse than 1st trimester sickies? No. And for that reason, I don’t complain about much.

So today’s random topic is something that is quite controversial and I may step on a few toes. Not intentionally of course but when pregnancy and motherhood is discussed, things get a little funny. So here’s the thing…

I wasn’t one of those little girls who pictured herself being a mother. I had baby dolls and Barbies but they were more accessories in my girldom than actual toys that foreshadowed my future. Even in high school and college, I knew I wanted to be married and have kids, but it was never something that I actively worked towards. I didn’t have that maternal clock that many of my friends seemed to have. In fact, in my early 20’s, motherhood seemed to be more of an inconvenience than anything else. I pictured myself having to swap everything I loved to become a Mom. I thought I’d have to loose my self-identity, friends, hobbies and passions to raise a child. I’d seen friends do this and just knew that being a Mom closer to to my 30’s was the only choice for me. I wanted to really LIVE before becoming a Mom. And so lived I did.

Esposo and I made the decision to become parents because we thought we were in a good place in our lives to do so. Plus we both genuinely wanted to be parents. Now with being just a few months away from being a Mom, I still have this fear that I’ll be so consumed with motherhood that I will loose myself. I have no problem dedicating my life to raising my children but I want to ensure that Esposo will still continue making music a part of his life. And that I will still blog, travel, volunteer and workout like I’ve been doing before pregnancy. We don’t live near relatives so I can’t rely on grannies as nannies and cousins who will babysit while I go to the gym. I’m sure it’ll be a challenge to even crank out a blog post every day. While battling this fear, I run into spurts of “You know what…we can do this!” And that’s what keeps me going. There are plenty of women who have managed to find a balance between parenting and running businesses, working outside of the home, enjoying their hobbies and spending time with their friends.

Bean will gleefully be #1 in our lives and there’s no doubting that but I will try my hardest to be that Mom with a life. Is that okay? Is it okay that I want my children to be integral parts of my life without making them my entire life? My friends with kids say that ‘things will change’ when Bean is born and I’m sure but that’s not the kind of discouraging comment a first time mom wants to hear, ya know?

Quick Bean Stats!

Weight Gain: 9 lbs! I freaked out for a minute but then realized that I lost a significant amount during first trimester. Midwife confirms that I’m right on track but thinks that Bean may be a week or 2 ahead of schedule. I’ll be scheduling an ultrasound to see.

Strangest Symptom: The other night I noticed my tummy beating as if it was my heart. So weird!

Maternity Photos?: Yep. They’ll have a comic book spin, I’m sure. We won’t be doing any bare-bellied pics. I kinda hate those…

Baby Registry: Finally got ‘em done! My Mom and sister did everything. I didn’t realize how clueless I was when it came to baby essentials.

Last person to touch my belly: So I’m on the elevator and this random man asks me if I’m pregnant and then proceeds to try and touch my belly. Men do this?! I don’t want any stranger touching me but some creepy man? Eww!

Goals for Upcoming Week: Prenatal yoga this weekend! The goal is to do it at least once a week. I also need to finalize a venue for the shower. Oh! And drink more water. I get down 60 oz a day but the midwife says I should be doing more. Oh boy…

 

Any gals out there who aren’t moms but want to be one day and can relate to the fear of potentially loosing yourself in motherhood? Is there a sure way to combat these feelings? 

Other Baby Posts:
-Bean’s Announcement
-Baby Clumps: 15 Weeks
-Baby Clumps: 16 Weeks + Gender Reveal
-Baby Clumps: 17 Weeks + Confusion
-Baby Clumps: 18 Weeks + Guys at baby showers?

Baby Clumps: 18 Weeks + Guys At Baby Showers?

Guess who is almost halfway done with her pregnancy? This girl here. Soooooooo excited about that! I’m not going to sit here and lie to y’all and be all like, “OMG, pregnancy has been wonderful.” because uh, it hasn’t been. I am grateful to go through this but I can’t wait to see Bean and get back to the things I lost while being pregnant (going to the gym regularly, for instance). I also realize that things may get a bit more difficult from here on out so I should really enjoy these days, uh? I’ve been dressing up, doing my makeup hair and feeling great and I think it’s showing.

I’m still eating and probably gaining weight too. I’ll know how much I’ve gained for sure at my midwife appointment next week. I’m not eating like the health nut I used to be but I’m doing a darn good job at not gagging and you know what-ing. I’m so proud of myself. And Bean. She clearly loves me enough to give me a break. It’s been a pretty decent week. My belly disappeared a bit. Bean moved to my back and because of that I’ve been having crazy back pains all week. She’s moved back to my belly a bit but I’m still not a baby bump-y as I was last week. My acne is clearing up and while I still get mild hits of nausea throughout the day ,they are manageable.

What she’s up to this week…

“At five and a half inches long and five ounces in weight, she now may be large enough for you to feel him twisting, rolling, kicking, and punching his way around the womb. Plus, she’s developing yawning and hiccupping skills (you may feel those soon, too!) and her own unique set of toe and fingerprints.” (source)

I do feel her move! I find it most active at night right before bed. I’ll be up for close to an hour just rubbing coconut oil on my belly and talking to her. I spend the mornings doing the same thing. Esposo spends a lot of time chit-chatting with her. He’s got an incredible voice and sings to her too. Which pretty much brings tears to my eyes. I’m thinking this baby girl will likely come out singing. With both of her parents being decent singers (ahem…I’m not half bad, ya know) and her grandparents being good singers too, Bean may be our ticket out of the Sallie Mae doghouse.

…from the Cult Nails photoshoot. More about that later.

Haha, just kidding. Kinda.

Okay, so random baby topic of the week…as I’ve been prepping for this baby shower in November, I have discovered that I am in the minority in thinking that men at a baby shower is weird. Apparently, men of all nationalities all over the world are invited and encouraged to attend baby showers of spouses, friends and family members. How did I not know this? Most of my experiences with baby showers have been super girl-only affairs with cheesy games. I even asked Esposo if he would like to attend my shower and he gave me an insane side-eye. When I took my thoughts to Twitter, many people told me that their husbands and their guy friends were happy to be a part of their baby showers? Really? I..I…I had no idea.

Have I been living under a rock thinking that baby showers are the kind of events that just for the mommy and her girlfriends? Do men WANT to go to these events or are they dragged by their partners?

Oh! Quick Bean Stats…

Current Obsession: Cinnamon gum. I eat like 2 pieces a day. It curbs my appetite and keeps the nausea at bay. Looooove this stuff. Hated it pre-pregnancy.

Baby Names?: Um no. Esposo and I can’t decide on anything. What I love he hates and vice-versa. And I don’t like hearing other peoples’ opinons. Bean’s name will be revealed after her birth. Until then, she’ll be Bean.

Things I Still Can’t Eat: Meat. I don’t even want to smell it. Green smoothies (which makes me sad), eggs and anything that has a ton of seasoning in it.

Last Baby Item Purchased: I still haven’t gotten anything. Is this normal? Oh! I did buy a belly band yesterday. Which is kinda a baby item. I think?

Goals for Upcoming Week: Do resistance training (upper-body) for 20 minutes at least 3x a week and regular kegal exercises.

 

Yay or nay to guys at baby showers? Yay or nay to baby showers period? I do think they can be a bit annoyingly  cheesy and uncomfortable (even more so if you aren’t a mother or don’t want to be one) but I’ve been to some fun ones too. Mine will have a heavy beauty spin to it so even if I invited guys, I’m not sure how they’d take to the beautifying. What say you?

Other Baby Posts:
-Bean’s Announcement
-Baby Clumps: 15 Weeks
-Baby Clumps: 16 Weeks + Gender Reveal
-Baby Clumps: 17 Weeks + Confusion

Baby Clumps: 17 Weeks + Confusion

I have fantastic news! I ate regular food this week. Eeeeeek! Y’all have no idea…NO idea how much this means to me. I feel like I’ve been hungover for 3 months and being able to eat something that I actually enjoy without it making me want to hurl is just…amazing. I feel like I should give a speech or something. I’m just so elated.

This week of pregnancy has actually been realllly good. I had a brief stint of random morning sickness that hit me at 7pm on Tuesday and wouldn’t go away but other than that, I’ve been in good spirits with very little complaints. And trust me – that’s the first. I haven’t been so super exhausted but still manage to sleep through the night. Headaches plague me every now and then but as a migraine sufferer, headaches are actually tolerable to me.

Here’s what Bean is up to this week…

My how your baby has grown! She’s about the size of your palm, weighs about five ounces, and is developing some body fat (join the club, baby!). Her heart is now regulated by her brain (no more random beats) to beat 140 to 150 times per minute — about twice as fast as yours! What else is up? She’s practicing the survival skills she’ll need at birth — like sucking and swallowing. (source)

And in other good news – I’ve got a legit baby bump. It’s so adorable and I’m glad to know that it’s not making me look like a whale. Not yet, at least. I’m a plus sized gal and so being pregnant always meant that I wouldn’t be just ALL belly. I didn’t want my pregnant belly to look like a big gut, ya know? I know the un-thin girls out there can relate.

Acne is still attacking my face and now I’ve got bacne. I’ve never had it before so to discover 5-7 pimples on my back is quite disturbing. I want nothing more than to go to the dermatologist for that and my eczema that is going out of control. But I’ll wait until after Bean is born. Hopefully by then, my skin will straighten out.

I’m starting to realize that maybe people were right about that whole “One day you’ll wake up and feel better.” thing is true. I’m not sure what day it was but I stopped being super nauseous, gagging at the thought of food and a belly started to appear. It was as if the clouds lifting and I started feeling like myself again. Thank you, Lord! I can probably go ahead and really start investing in some maternity clothes. I’ve got 2 pairs of pants but zero shirts. I’m not sure if I’m a fan of the super fitted look on pregnant bellies. Granted I don’t need to wear loose “Mommy” shirts but I’ve got to find some comfortable and cute pieces. I’ll probably be thrifting ‘em because I just can’t go breaking the bank on brand new maternity wear. Except for maternity/nursing bras because those are SO essential right now.

Can I be honest, chicas? I don’t really know what I should be doing. Like…with anything. There’s nothing that frightens me about being a mother because I know I can do that. But it’s the stuff leading up to it that has me in a whirl of confusion. When do I do a registry? What symptoms warrant fear? Is it okay that I forget to take the other half of my prenatals every day? Is it okay that I’m having a girl but don’t want her doused in pink everything? How much should I be eating? How much is too much? Is sitting for 8 hours a day bad for me? Will this varicose vein go away? Can I get my hair dyed? Is it okay that I don’t desire being a stay-at-home mom? How long should I breastfeed for? Am I getting enough protein in this vegetarian pregnancy?

And yeah – a lot of that stuff is unimportant in the scheme of things and I don’t go around wrecking my brain over them but I wish I wasn’t in such a wave of confusion all the time. I guess all first time moms go through the same thing.

Tis all, y’all! Thank you so much for the continued love and support. I know these baby posts aren’t up everyone’s alley (I realize some people just don’t care about this kind of stuff – and that’s fine) but Clumps has been my love for 5 years so I would feel “off” not sharing this with the Clumps family. Know what I mean?

 

 

Other Baby Posts:
-Bean’s Announcement
-Baby Clumps: 15 Weeks
-Baby Clumps: 16 Weeks

Baby Clumps: 16 Weeks + Gender Reveal!

First of all, I don’t even know how people can wait 30-somethin’ weeks to find out if what they’re carrying is a boy or girl. I just…I can’t even deal. I don’t know WHY knowing the gender is so important to me, but it is. Esposo and I both wanted a boy. Men want sons and with my having nothing but sisters, does is seem outrageous to want to break the cycle a bit? But when I really think about – any time I pictured myself as a mother, it was always me being a mother to a little girl.

Since getting pregnant, I’ve had several dreams about baby girls. I just knew that Bean was a girl. I would tell people this and they’d laugh and say, “There’s no way you can just know.” But I did.

Oh! Before I forget, let’s see what Bean is up to this week.

“Your baby now weighs in at a whopping three to five ounces, and is four to five inches in length. The bones that are now in place in his ears means baby can probably hear your voice as you talk to your partner and pals and sing in the car. While baby is getting used to your voice, the tiny muscles in his body, especially the ones in his back, are gaining strength, so he can straighten out a little more. And thanks to the developing facial muscles, your baby is capable of making a few expressive frowns and squints, even at this early stage The eyes are finally working, making small side-to-side movements and perceiving light (although the eyelids are still sealed).” (source)

Here’s to hoping Lé Bean has longer and lusher eyelashes than Mummy. Ha!

As for me: Well, I promised that I’d reveal the truth behind my pregnancy. I wish more women revealed the details (as gore-y as they may be) so that the rest of us could kind of get an idea of what to expect. My face has turned against me. It’s not even funny. I’ve got acne on top of acne. I look in the mirror and don’t even know who I am anymore. Which sounds dramatic but it makes me very sad. I thought I was supposed to have some kind of glow but um no…ain’t no glowin’ over here. The truth, bro…

Sad, ain’t it? Especially since these pimples have just popped up in the past week or so. On a good note, the morning sickness has really subsided. I only get sick early in the morning and in the evenings. Sucking on a Jolly Rancher or munching on cereal keeps the feeling at bay. I have also discovered that I can’t brush my tongue as vigorously as I’d like. I did that this past week and was upchucking Cheerios. Yes. Ew. This gag reflex refuses to go away.

As do the food aversions. I’m used to eating the same things. Eating still sucks but I get it done because I know the minute I get a hunger pang, a headache is soon to follow. First trimester fatigue is back so daily naps are a must. I’m not going to lie, I wish I didn’t have to work during all of this. I think I’d be a happier pregnant woman if I didn’t have to drag myself to work and sit in a chair for 8 hours a day. Just sayin’… As far as sleeping, I can’t ever get comfortable despite getting a body pillow so my back hurts daily. I’m used to a sore back though – I mean, I’ve been carrying DD’s since I was like 16. Okayyyyy?!

Things I’m Great At: Drinking a TON of water, remembering to take prenatal pills, counting pimples and attempting to eat healthy stuffs.

Annoying Symptom: My dog hates me. And has hated me since I became pregnant. It used to hurt my feelings but now I don’t care anymore. She runs from me and acts as if I’m  going to hit her. Someone call Casear Milan, please.

Annoying Things People Say:
“You’re pregnant. Wow. I never want to be pregnant.”

“Enjoy life now because it’s about to be over.”

“Everyone is getting married or pregnant!”

“Loosing the post-baby weight is so hard. It’ll take you years.”

“Are you gonna become a stay at home mom now?”

Biggest Lesson Learned: Keep Bean’s name a secret until Bean is born.

Something to look forward to: The day I can eat real food again. I’ve still got hope. I can’t have aversions the entire pregnancy, can I?

Oh, and….

Bean is a girl!!!!!

 

The Clumps Facebook page found out first and the love given had me all teary eyed. I love y’all. Despite us both wanting a boy, we were so emotionally choked up when we saw Bean on that ultrasound. And no, I don’t feel bad about “wanting” a certain gender. God blessed us with what He thought we needed and deserved and our little girl will the perfect addition to our geeky family. She’ll be a free-thinker, superhero lovin’, pink-hatin’  (maybe??) Hello Kitty aficando who will speak more than one language. Or she’ll be whoever she wants to be and we’ll be fine with that. :cool:

Pregnant or not, would you want to find out your baby’s gender before their birth? Or do you dig the element of surprise? Oh! And crazy pregnancy show of the week? 70 and Pregnant:shock: 

 

Other Baby Posts:
-Bean’s Announcement
-Baby Clumps: 15 Weeks


Baby Clumps: 15 Weeks

Uggggh! I could just burst out in tears right now. I previously wrote this post yesterday and for whatever reason, it disappeared. I’m over technology.

Haha! Just kidding. As a first time time mom, every day, every week COUNTS. Time has never mattered so much since I’ve been pregnant. In a way, it’s exciting and in other ways, it’s kinda annoying.

Soooo….what’s goin’ on with the Bean?

“Fetal body movements continue to get practice this week, too. But because your baby weighs so little (a bit over two ounces), you won’t feel the calisthenics going on inside your abdominal gym. But don’t let that fool you. Your fetus is holding daily aerobics classes — kicking, curling toes, and moving those little arms and legs. And with each passing week, your fetus is looking more and more like the baby you’re picturing in your dreams. By now, the ears are positioned properly on the sides of the head (they used to be in the neck) and the eyes are moving from the side of the head to the front of the face.” (source)

Bean is good! I had an appointment with my midwife and all vitals are lookin good. Bean’s heartbeat is nice and strong and I actually gained 3 lbs. Now I’ve never been the type to ever want to gain weight but at this point in my pregnancy, loosing and not gaining can be a problem. So I was reallllly excited to step on that scale to see that both Bean and I are getting the nutrients we need.

My belly is getting harder and a bit plumper. So much so that I had to pull out those maternity pants that (Grand)Mama Clumps bought me a while back.

They are far from sexy but these bad boys are so comfy. My pants are getting a bit tight so it looks like I’ll have to invest in more of these. Or at the very least, a belly band. And say nothing about this fugly “Florida tourist” shirt. I’ve been far too lazy to do any laundry this week. And that fatigue seems to be coming back in spurts. I just can’t seem to get enough sleep. Grr!

I still hate food. Having to eat annoys me. The smell of food. The way it goes down my throat. Ugh. I still have a pretty strong gag reflex so if I don’t eat slowly, I’m hacking it up with the quickness. I’ve stopped trying to eat new foods and just stick with the things that I know won’t make me sick: fresh fruit smoothies with greek yogurt, cereal, almond milk, fruit, peanut butter & jelly sandwiches, pasta, hummus, raw veggies, popcorn and cheese. Anything outside of that aren’t even options right now. Which annoys me but honestly – every time I try something new, I’m throwing it up. So I’ll go with the flow until my hormones straighten up.

Which needs to be sooner rather than later because I REALLY miss Thai food.

Emotionally, this week was better. The good news from my midwife put me in better spirits. Pregnancy has not been fun for me but at least now I’m getting some joy out of it knowing that the Bean is healthy. I have so much more respect for women who have gone through tough pregnancies. Granted, I’m sure some women have dealt with worse symptoms than I have but to be able to do it and still go to work, parent other children and handle business like normal, just…WOW.

I’ve got this whole newfound pride for being a woman. I don’t think being pregnant or a Mother necessarily means you’re a stronger woman, but being pregnant has certainly brought light to the fact that a woman’s body, what it can do, create and deal with makes us effing rockstars. And that goes for all of us. And if you are a gal who dealt with or deals with extremely painful cycles, I salute you too because giiiiiirl, I know your pain.

I’m going to follow Caitlin of Healthy Tipping Point’s format for how she documented her pregnancy. She was already a favorite blogger of mine and I love love LOVED reading her pregnancy updates.

Now for the quick stats…

Weight Gained: 3 lbs (up from the 15 that I lost)

Worst Symptom: Food aversions. Not being able to really eat sucks.

Strangest Symptom: I burp. A lot. And it’s gross. I’m one of those people that think they are too fancy to burp so when it happens, I feel mortified. Ha!

Something to look forward to: ULTRASOUND ON MONDAY!!!!!!!! And yes, I’ll be finding out the gender. Any guesses?

Last Baby Thing Purchased: I actually haven’t purchased one darn thing yet. Is that bad?

 

Anyone else have a pretty tough pregnancy? Oh! And every time I’m flippin’ channels, I seem to run into the show I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant. What…in…the…world? That show just completely baffles me! Has anyone else watched it? 

 

Other Baby Posts:
-Bean’s Announcement

I’m your resident JOHNSON’S BABY Care Council member!

The ambassadorships keep rolling in and I couldn’t be happier. With Clumps of Mascara turning 5 years old next month, I’ve really wanted to step my game up outside the blog with brand opportunities and the hard work is payin’ off. Woot! I am officially a JOHNSON’s BABY Care Council member alongside 14 other phenomenal bloggers.

I know, I know I don’t have any bebes yet but whatev…who hasn’t used JOHNSON’s Baby Powder for beauty uses? Um yahhhh.

Most recently, new Mom Hilary Duff (OMG, Lizzie McQuire is all growed up!) has partnered with JOHNSON’S BABY to help with one of the first JOHNSON’S BABY CARES program initiatives — the assembly, donation and distribution of thousands of JOHNSON’S Baby “Care Kits”. These kits will provide families with baby care essentials immediately during and after disasters.

Sweet, right? I’m very happy to be a part of a brand that does good deeds. Stay tuned for more news of my JOHNSON’S BABY Cares Council member duties. Next month we’ll be heading to New Jersey for an official business meeting and of course I’ll be tweetin’ away.

 

Oh! Before I go – by purchasing any JOHNSON’S Baby product at retail stores with a $0.50 cent coupon between now and June 10, 2012, JOHNSON’S Baby will donate $0.25 cents to Save the Children. You can get more deets about the awesome things JOHNSON’s is doing by visiting their Facebook page.

You can help by simply viewing the ‘You’re Doing OK Mom’ video on the JOHNSON’S® Baby YouTube Page. When they reaches 500,000 views, the brand will donate an additional $50,000 to Save the Children. Go to the JOHNSON’S® Baby Facebook Page to learn more about it.

Johnson’s Challenge: Beautifying the…dashboard?

Aaaaand, we’re moving on with the Johnson’s Beauty Challenge! I’ve showed you the benefits of applying baby powder in the stinky sneakers and now it’s time to take it to the car. Some of us spend many hours a week in our cars. You know…sitting in traffic, trying to beat rush hour (#FAIL) and going to and from work almost every day. Mama Clumps gave me the idea of slathering baby oil gel all over my dashboard to give it some extra bling.

Seriously! Watch this…